"I don't know where I belong

I don't know where I went wrong."

But I do know that I am a bad person.
I never wanted to be a bad person.

I got hurt so I hurt others and now I deserve this cold night with only my cigarettes and a text message from a new friend that will never come to me.

"you told me I was like the dead sea."
I really am. Wiki says "animals can't flourish" in the dead sea.

"I don't gamble, but if i did, I would bet on us"
I'm going to bask in this. Because I deserve this for treating others how I was treated. I was knocked the fuck down so I knocked the next three people who gave a shit down. So with this one, I will bask in it.
Bask and not wallow because I am... an awful fucking person.
But I really did think of this one differently. It's been almost a year since you left me. And I've treated everyone like dirt since then... Until now. So I really do deserve this. That's how life works...... Right?