.

Yes, I know the feeling; know you're leaving. 

?

Maybe I don't suck as much as I had thought. 

.

"I said the nicest thing I've ever said about you the other day" oh yeah? What was that? "Chelsea ain't so bad, huh?"

"You're not just a drinking buddy, or a bar friend, you're more than that. You know that. My days are better because I have you in my life."

"You know that I love you. You know that I would be good to you.. But you know me, you know I just can't."

"You're beautiful" what? "Nothing."

"You're like a koala bear. Ahh you just hang on me..."

"I've never told anyone those things before."

"You're my koala"

"I need you in my life forever. We can't ruin that."

"I love you and I hate to see what my moods have done to you. You're unhappy which makes me more unhappy."

"I don't want to be together anymore."

"We'll get back to how we were, I promise."

And we never did. 

We had a good day or two since, but nothing substantial. I don't know what happened. 

I had a friend die this week. A good dude died. You still weren't there for me. 

Who are you?

Where did my koala go?