I really love the weather.

I love everything about this season actually.

I have a lot of good memories with a lot good people in this season.
I have a lot of good memories with a lot of shitty people as well.
One person in particular.
The more he pushes me away, the more I try not to move.
I just want to walk under the trees with you.



Apologies for the sadness that appears to be present in this entry.
It's really not there, I promise.
I'm happier than I have ever been. :D



I want to listen to Every Avenue and take Jack and Jilly on a walk.
I just want you to miss our friendship as much as I do.
I hate that this is a game for you.
It's fucked up that you only talk to me when I ignore you... but I guess that goes for me too.
I hate that this is a game for me.
That's all you are is a game to me.
A game that I got bored with early, but kept wanting to come back to.
Once I appreciated it, it was tired of being played. hahaha played, pun intended.
Sometimes I wonder if you read this. If you do, please tell me.

But I hope/know that you don't.

You don't really know this side of me. and frankly I don't want you to.

I want you to know me how you did.

How I am.

I'm so content with how things are and you don't believe me.

Redundant: I am the happiest I have EVER been.

Why do you insist that I am not by fucking me over time and time again.

Let's just climb your tree.

Or sit on your driveway and talk.

You don't know me anymore.

But I know you, therefore I know that won't happen.

Friendship Bracelets!
Jessica was home this
weekend and it felt like
she had never left.
Her, Dereck, Dave and
I made bracelets.
We hung out all weekend.
It was unbelievable. My
friends surprised
me with her, it was
seriously the best
thing ever.

This weekend wasn't the same without Tricky.
I hate him lately. :(

It's like I've been awaken.

I've been listening to Michael Jackson and Beyonce like it's my fucking job.

Twitter rules my life.

I haven't had anything to write about lately.

I've been reading a lot of Pete Wentz' old entries. I forgot the kind of mood they put me in. and It's really addicting, but it's the worst mood ever. but at the same time, i love it!
no one gives a fuck about eyes that are always leaking,
besides youre just hushing headboards that are always creaking.
its become apparent that there may be noone thinking of you the way i do at this very moment.
were "out of the woods".
but i am in love with the tree i used to lie under.
eyes green with envy or brown and full of shit.
or somewhere in between.
i want this to be a remix of our nighttimes.

I'm not really sure what I can actually say publicly about my life lately.
There is a whole bunch going on.
Only about 5 people know about it. Including me. and that's crazy.

I've never been this scared in my life.
The outcome can go one of two ways.
Either way, I promise to stay happy.
Sometimes mistakes can be joyous.
This wasn't a mistake though.

I went up to 7/16.
Mood plugs. they don't show my correct mood though.
It's alright.

I've fallen in love with sleeping lately.
I think I might go lay down right now.
Maybe fall asleep until my mom gets home with my yogurt.
Or until I get a specific visitor...however, in that case I may be asleep for awhile.

I wonder if people actually read this.
Because if they don't I feel like I could say everything going on lately and it wouldn't matter.
But then again, I may have stalkers.

:]

I had a sleep over with an old friend last night.
Even though we had to wake up at 6:30 so he could go to school, it was a lot of fun.

I love my life lately, and everyone in it.
I love my life lately, and haven't missed you in it.
The way you have acted has made me realize this.
And you've made me say mean things to you, and I don't like the person you make me become.

Becky and Katie have grown to be 2 of my best friends.
Becky especially.

I realized I have only had 2 consistant friends, Jessica and Michelle, since I was in 5th grade. and I am fine with that. MORE than fine with that.
That's all I need.
Besides, I think Bex will be one of those soon enough.

I hope all is well with everyone.

I'm going to BSU this weekend to visit Michelle, Austin, Josh, Kacie, and Jesse!
Can not wait.

I don't have to work today because the power is shut off.
And the Same As Sunday show is tonight! :]