fuck you.
fuck her.
fuck you fucking her.
fuck her fucking you.
fuck every time you've ever lied to me.
fuck everything you've ever said to me.
fuck every time i've ever felt second to her.
fuck every time i said this was going happen.
fuck every time i've tried to help you.
fuck every time i couldn't help you.
fuck me fucking you.
fuck you fucking me.
fuck you.
fuck me.

winter.

sometimes i feel really really cold even when the room is warm.
then i have to block out the coldness and redirect my mind somewhere happy and warm.
this is no hoax.
i do this quite often.

Dear Chi-town,

i wasn't mad at dinner.

i was feeling depressed.

But no one wants to believe that.